Happy Anniversary!

Wow - would you believe I've doing this shit for a whole year now? The other day I took a peek at my first few attempts at writing on the internet and realized how much things have changed... Boy I sucked! How could you guys read that crap? I was cringing as I went over some of my first blog entries. And Gawd was I dramatic! It looked more like something out of the National Enquirer rather than the factual tell-all I wanted.

Anyway, I thought this would be a good time for me to talk about this blog and how it's affected me over the past year. That's what you're supposed to do every December, right?

Let me start off by saying that you guys have all been great. I've had so much fun talking about and sharing all this crap. I've had the opportunity to chat with fellow masseuses about the ins and outs (no pun intended) of The Business. And I've been able to give personal advice to guys about to try their first erotic massage (Where did ya go? I'm waiting for your stories!).

When I started doing this, I really didn't know what to expect. At first I figured this would be a quick and easy way to get some stuff off my chest (again no pun intended) and maybe get a couple of laughs. It was just so much easier (and safer) than having a real paper diary. And even better - I could confess whatever I wanted, and get real advice and feedback from others.

One of the best things I got out of all this was questions, comments and advice from people totally outside The Business. Before this blog, I would NEVER EVER EVER have considered telling any non-masseuses about work. You can't really appreciate what an incredible relief it was for me to suddenly have this outlet - where I could tell a story about a customer, or bitch about my boss, or just admit the real reason why my left hand is always sore. Now I feel totally free to complain about a bad day at work and not worry about being judged, and maybe even find a sympathetic shoulder to cry on. I can't thank you guys enough for being so nice to me!

Then I discovered another benefit of talking about work online - I got insight and feedback from other people in The Business! I mean I've been doing erotic massage for about 10 years now, and I thought I knew everything there was to know. But then I started to hear from girls all over the country who made me realize that I still have a lot to learn and to share.

Another thing I wanted to mention is that I've had the opportunity to chat with not only fellow masseuses, but dancers and escorts as well. After listening to some of their stories and advice, I would like to say right now that I've softened my stance on other types of sex workers and I'll apologize right now if I've offended some of you (one working girl to another!).

A few months ago I put my e-mail address on my profile so you guys could ask private questions if you wanted. It was great hearing from you - particularly the ones who were about to try their first erotic massage. But one thing I wasn't expecting were the requests by some of you guys to come see me at The Business. WOW - was I flattered! I mean, it NEVER occurred to me to use the internet to advertise. For real! I've since learned that a lot of other Businesses use Craigslist and other websites to advertise their servcies (did I have a lot to learn!). We have always relied on classifieds, billboards and word of mouth. Now I discover that most people look to the internet first, and Craigslist has become the worlds biggest pimp daddy.

Let me tell ya, considering how bad business has been recently, I WISH I could have seen all of you. But I learned a long time ago that in this line of work, anonymity is absolutely essential. I would never be able to write about work, the boss, and especially my precious "Freak of the Week" if I wasn't anonymous. I hope you guys can understand that. But boy, I would love to drum up new business if I could. If only there were a tiny little version of the internet that only existed in SE PA and I could instantly banish any stalkers and weirdos... Oh well.

One last thing I wanted to share is that when I first started, I wasn't sure what to write about. I figured you all would ask questions and I'd answer them, or I'd tell you about some freaky customer I just had. I never would have guessed that I'd eventually be talking about politics, human trafficking, or my own personal faults and weaknesses. After re-reading a few of the old posts, I saw how I went from less than honest on a few topics - to total confessions a short year later. In fact, I've admitted a few things on this blog first that Trina later yelled at me about for not telling her.

And there ya have it - a year of secrets and confessions from the world of erotic massage. I hope somebody out there was paying attention and learned something! And here's to another year... may it be filled with Freaks, Sugar Daddies, ditzy co-workers, and bitchy bosses to keep you entertained.

CJ