Thursday, July 7, 2011
This is a lot harder than I thought. I mean, it's not like I get an uncontrollable urge to grab some strange man and give him a handjob in the middle of a grocery store. But I do miss having a steady job and somewhere to be 40 hours a week.
It's been about 2 weeks now since I walked out of The Business. I've had Regulars calling me and I still won't pick up the phone. Part of it is I just don't want to talk about what happened, and part of it is not wanting anything to do with that part of my life anymore. But there were a couple guys I talked to, just to let them know I wasn't going to be around. For the most part, everyone has been understanding and supportive, but it was only a matter of time before guys started asking me about outcall.
I've been asked to meet guys in hotel rooms before, but I guess people think I'll be desperate enough to do it now that I'm "independent." I mean what the fuck? I just want to lay low for a while and figure out what I really want to do with my life.
And in the meanwhile I only want a couple of my mom's friends as clients. Little old ladies don't pay much, but at least they won't try to finger me or cum in my hair.