Friday, July 1, 2011

I'm Back

I quit the business. Really. It's been over a week now. It's a long story that I'm sure I'll eventually get around to telling, but for now let's just say that I hate my life and want things to change.

And to top things off, Derek asked me to marry him.

I mean I doubt he was serious. I was upset, had no job, etc., and I think he was just trying to say something he thought I wanted to hear. Don't get me wrong - it was sweet of him to say it, but really? Now?

To make things worse, there aren't many people I can go to with work problems. Of course there's Trina, but she didn't have my back and walk out with me. I may have been trying to make a point, but I would have appreciated a little solidarity when I had my one girl strike. "But I have rent to pay! I can't quit."

Wah.

Then there's Cindy who doesn't give a "rat's ass" what happened at work. Well put my friend. I can't blame her. I just think she was happy to hang out with me for once. As for Derek, he knew I had a fight with my boss and that was about it. Thank goodness guys don't read anything into these situations. A girl would have wondered what on Earth a "shampooist" has to fight about with her boss.

No offense to anyone out there, but I haven't read any comments, or checked email. I just wanted to get away from everything for a little while. But I'm back now, so I'll try to catch up on stuff and get things back to normal. Whatever that is.

CJ


26 comments:

Lost.in.Idaho said...

Well this is an interesting twist, especially since this blog centered around the business.

Hope you find your way soon, whatever that way may be,

Anonymous said...

WELL CJ ITS JUNIOR HERE.....WELL SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR JOB...BUT LIFE NEVER GOES SMOOTH ..SMALL BUMPS ARE BOUND TO COME....FOR NOW DONT WORRY.....I MAY SOUND LITTLE IMMATURE BUT PLAN TO RELOCATE....MIAMI IS A NICE PLACE FOR MASSAGERS....LOT OF YOUNG PEOPLE ...TOURIST AND I AM SURE A EXPERT LIKE YOU WILL GET LOT OF CUSTOMERS....ALSO OTHER OPTION IS TO START A SMALL BUSINESS IN YOUR HOME....BUT WE ARE WITH YOU AND IN CASE IYOU WANT WE ALL CAN HELP AND CONTRIBUTE TO PAY YOU LITTLE EVERY MONTH...YOU GIVE US SUCH FINE ADVICES AND BLOS..YOU DESERVE IT...PLEASE LET ME HELP YOU

URS
JUNIOR

Shannon Rae said...

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!

Wish you the best CJ!

Jay said...

I can't believe you stayed as long as you did. You are LICENSED and have what others there don't. I would NOT sacrifice my license in a massage parlor where they did more than what you did, where some of the girls could get stupid and offer FS to the wrong guy. You worked hard for that and it should be appreciated. Also, they should have cut you a deal somehow with the door fee, so that you could have made more money than the other girls, especially since you basically ran the place for so long. Imagine if you became independent and could keep all the money for yourself. I think it's got to be validating that Derek asked you to marry him. I am not worthy lol.

Friendly Nerd said...

sorry to hear about your upset.

I'm guess I'm not too sorry that you've left that place. I hope you find something you like better.

Anonymous said...

CJ,

Sorry to hear this sweetie. I'm sympathetic to the hellish amount of stress you must have gone through.

You are such a talented writer with a truly authentic voice. Please don't abandon blogging whatever happens, that would truly be a great loss.
I wish you the best of luck, and truly hope you can land on your feet.
Cheers,
Bill

MelissaBlade said...

Wow CJ, I didn't see that coming. Are you going back to therapeutic massage?

On a side note, how did you keep your job secret from Derek? Didn't he ever want to stop by or call at work?

Mistress Suzie Snow said...

Sorry to hear the stress you are going through.

If you have it in you, I think you should send e-mails to book publishers and see if you can get a book deal. You are an engaging writer, great & interesting material and you are easy to relate to. I know you have tons more in that head of yours. There are Tons of books about "adult services" (Know u hate that category) - But the only one on par with your blog is Jenna Jameson's- How to.....Porn star. Go find a job at a salon, do massage, get a few clients and do them for extra money on the side.. and see where the book thing goes... I know you can do it!Dont take no for an answer.

Please don't forgo the blog, it is selfish of me to say but I really will miss it if you do! I just want you 2 be happy and enjoy life. Change sucks, but is necessary. After being in the same place for a while, you now have new opportunities and are given a big reason to make yourself happy and do what you want.
Hope it works out with Derick, marry him if u love him but don't let him think he needs 2 throw on the cape and save the day...

You have beauty, brains, a licence, youth, health, no kids and determination on your side..

Good luck girl! Now get to blogging!

suz

Joker_SATX said...

Wow...Just wow!

Sorry to hear this CJ. Here is hoping that you land on your feet.

Anonymous said...

You have my support :)

~A

SpongeBob said...

Wow! So I spent the past three weekeneds reading this blog in its entirety, and the day I am caught up, you quit. Maybe it is for the best, but something tells me you will be back. Good luck and just make sure you think things through.

Question: in the event you are seriously out of the industry (not just the 'business'), will reveal your identity and the business. On here? As many have stated, this would make a wonderful book.

Bandoblue said...

Take your time and take care of yourself. Even though we love your writing and miss you, your fans will be waiting when you get around to us again.

Anonymous said...

Glad to have you back, but sorry to hear about your situation. As a longtime fan, I hope you find a new, awesome situation that makes you happy day-to-day. Good luck CJ!

Anonymous said...

Dear CJ,

Have you told your family about being pregnant? I'm really excited for you and hope your baby is healthy and you have an uncomplicated pregnancy.

Thank you,
Gerry

Anonymous said...

CJ,

Once you find another job, i think you should save your money to open up that tanning salon you always wanted. by that time, hopefully you're happily married with Derek :D

Just Visiting said...

CJ:

Good for you. This has been a great blog for us readers, but IMO you needed to get out of that life - perhaps sooner than you did.

Wish you the best :)

Anonymous said...

Well, I certainly hope things work out for you. Keep us informed on how you're doing...

greenhornynet said...

Glad you are ok. You didn't post anything for awhile and I was worried something happened to you. The economy does suck, but I'm sure you'll find something soon. Screw that bitch of a boss. (Well, not literally, although that would be hot).

tightend said...

Wow! What happened? You need to let your readers and fans know.

Anonymous said...

Perhaps writing is your true calling as evidenced in this blog. You can start off with a book depicting yourself (or a character) in this lifestyle in a vivid,graphic, detailed manner. All the best.

John Morgan said...

Sorry to hear you're out of the business. If I ever got to visit your establishment, I would've fucked the shit out of your hand.

Anonymous said...

I must say, your writing style and wit seem to indicate that you put alot of effort into your blog. Perhaps this started as an outlet to keep you sane, but I think this grew on you as much as it did your followers.

If you trully are unhappy with things in your life right now then change them. Otherwise it will just continue to suck.

p.s. Even if its not here. Keep writing, you are gifted at it.

Anonymous said...

Why not open your own place?

Anonymous said...

you should get a cam website..and do private shows for us

Shallby

Anonymous said...

Seriously proud of you for standing your ground. Things will turn out for the better =)

Anonymous said...

Dude, CJ, I totally get it.........fellow masseuse...don't stop blogging girl....we'll miss you....I keep trying to start blogs but they never have the levity of yours...looking for a community of others but I'm so not into the granola sex worker thing :))) love from manhattan :))