Friday, August 19, 2011

Update

I've tried on and off to update you guys on what's going on over the last couple of weeks. One of the new problems I have is getting unsupervised access to a computer. You see, since quitting The Business, I've been spending more and more of my free time at Derek's. He feeds me and he has cable TV. The downside is I have to wait for him to go to sleep before I can hop on his laptop. And I feel that it's just weird for me to hang out at his place when he's not there.
Going independent isn't all it's cracked up to be. I finally caught up on all the comments from the last 2 weeks. Some of you suggested I get my own office space, and I agree that wouldn't be a bad idea. The problem is money.

You see, since leaving The Business I went from several appointments and walk-ins a week to just a handful. I do get more per session now, but back at The Business, I was seeing way more customers. My sessions now aren't as ala carte as they used to be. My Regulars just kinda offer me a fixed amount with a vague agreement of what I will or won't do. So basically I'm pretty broke, and being broke does not help in establishing clear and strict boundaries. I'm not proud of this.

For example, I had a session last week that I think bumped me up to your freshman year girlfriend. It was one of my more loyal Regulars, so I'm more relaxed and trusting around this customer than most. Well, he wanted a thigh release. For you newbies out there, a thigh release is where I clamp my legs together and the guy slides his cock between my thighs. It's pretty much as close to fucking as you can get.

Well, I haven't done that in a while, but I agreed. I obviously forgot why I stopped. You see, he wanted to do it missionary style which meant his naked body on top of mine. Now during a standard happy ending, I can detach myself from the handjob. Only my hand is in contact with the customer, and the motions are pretty mechanical to the point where I can mentally balance my checkbook at the same time I'm bringing a guy to orgasm. But a missionary style thigh release is pretty much all the nasty, dirty and sweaty bits of fucking without the actual penetration.

I felt his body on top of mine. I felt the thrusts and could see the look on his face. I could feel his heavy breaths on my face. And when he finally came, I was expecting him to simulate cumming inside me by just thrusting down and staying there so the semen goes between my legs and into the sheets. But instead, he pulled out and jerked himself off all over my stomach. Then he collapsed on top of me - just like a high-school boyfriend. So there we were in a sticky, sweaty heap on his bed. It was so bad I asked to use his shower which I never do.

And this led to the most guilt I've felt in a while. I mean I was pretty much just inches away from full service. And for me it was all the sensations and consequence of actual fucking. I felt guilty and dirty about what happened. I felt the closest I've ever felt to cheating on Derek - and that says a lot considering what I do for a living.

CJ

85 comments:

Anonymous said...

This business seems to give you a lot of ups and downs. have you considered getting another job? One that is much more...stable. also I hope that you have enough money to open up that tanning salon you've always wanted. I think you'd make a terrific boss cause you have tons of customer experience ;)

MelissaBlade said...

Wow, C.J., I do happy endings for a living but that story was disturbing. I agree it's easy to detach and so I think you really need to stick to the standard stuff....and no outcall! I realize money is an issue but a studio shouldn't be too much...or hell maybe it's time to get out altogether. This business is not forever, even I am planning on leaving it eventually. I have no idea how you keep it from Derek.

Al Sensu said...

CJ, as someone who has experienced erotic massage in business, independent in-call and independent outcall, I have to say you're making a big mistake.

You can control the situation. You must control it. You need to set the rules of what you will and won't do to your satisfaction.

There is no reason that a customer who was accepting the rules when you were in the business will not when you're on outcall. There should be no difference. It's no secret that guys will ask for as much as they can get, and they clearly recognize your discomfort and weakness, so they are taking advantage of it. And there is no reason for them to pay anything less than they were for the exact same services. On outcall they should pay more since you have to travel.

Even this sweaty guy...next appointment, you just tell him you don't want to do that anymore. That you appreciate him as a client and will offer exactly what you offered in the business and for no lower a price (price being what you got + what the business got. They will take it. They're horny and they have the money.

They're desperate, so don't you be.

Al Sensu said...

And I want to ratify one of the comments on your previous post:

1) Buy a massage table
2) Bring the same attitude and price list to the transaction
3) Enforce the rules the 1st time and every time
4) Keep an eye on the clock and stick with a schedule.

And for #3, for the ones you've "slipped" on already, just go back to the original policy. They may complain a bit, but they'll accept it.

Advizor54 said...

As a fan of your writing, I appreciate the wit and intelligence you bring to creating this blog and dealing with the ups and downs of your time in and now out of the the business.

But, I think it's time to get out. you are seeing how easy it would be to slip in to full service and you know that you don't want to go there. Take all the charm and work ethic and brains and go out and get a job. The economy is tough, yes, but the consequences of letting just one client get out of hand would be horrible.

All of your fans want better things for you.

Anonymous said...

Be careful what you do on your bf's computer. It's becoming very easy to capture every keystroke logged on your device and if there is any suspicion on his end, there are very, very affordable solutions available.

Just Visiting said...

Well, I just have to be a bit of a pervert. Face it, most of us here are.

The closer you come to providing full service, the hotter it is :)

Regardless, hope you get all this straightened out. I hope even more that we keep getting hot stories from whatever you're doing.

Anonymous said...

that is a sad story cj

Just Visiting said...

Oh, yeah...

For those who keep giving CJ advice (and I've been one), getting a massage table and/or studio might bring serious attention from Derek about exactly where time is spent and money is coming from.

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to wonder enough to check up on things.

Anonymous said...

Love all your posts CJ. I see a book coming soon!! I have one question I went to a massage parlor the other day. Received oral for free no questions or hints about anything. She just done it and said come back and see me soon!!! WTF

Anonymous said...

i told you do a webcam show..thats were all the money is at...and you can do it at home duh...start making bank already

Anonymous said...

One step closer I see....
Like what you are doing now isn't cheating lol.

Ace said...

This post gave me some perspective. My current girlfriend is a prostitute in Thailand who I met through a mutual friend. It's a long distance relationship, obviously. I love her very much, but it is very hard for me to deal with her employment, obviously. She has to support her mother and her daughter. If and when we get married, obviously, things will change, but for the time being, this is where we are. Thanks for reminding me that it might be as tough emotionally for her as it is for me, if not more so, seeing as she probably carries a burden of guilt as well. This post inspired me to man up, not be a bitch and feel sorry for myself, and be as supportive of her as I can.

Shannon Rae said...

W O W

ספא said...

good post.. I love your stories :)

Anonymous said...

I am just going to jump in here and say "WHAT AL SENSU SAID".

You need to take control of this, for yourself.

C'mon CJ, you're smart. You know this already - you need to lay down the law here. And enforce it. No matter how many puppy-eyes or snotty attitudes you get about it - business is business.

Take care of yourself.

Anonymous said...

if you ever want to go a step beyond, i am sure you will be a big hit.i am sure you can make 5 times this money in 1 visit and be selective. Great life style, more money for less work. What you have explained here is sex no matter what hole he is f*ckin you in. Emotionally you felt like having sex with a shower to finish..YOU JUST HAD SEX!!! atleast make more money from it. Hell, you might even make $$$$$ with me for a pop.

Natalia said...

Hi hon!

FIRST OF ALL I LOVE YOUR HONESTY!!!!

I second what Al Sensu said. I do not bring the table around with me. I live in NYC. I know a lot of people. My clients have doormen. I also do not live alone.

Nevertheless I second the thing about the boundaries.

I set a serious, serious tone, while being playful. I think you need to expand your client base, and find people who don't feel like they're "seeing you outside the club" as our sister sex workers who strip would say. It's always a big no to get too personal unless these people really do become friends--like 1 in a zill. lol

Oh, man, I SO want to talk to you, and like, tell you about how I can never listen to Van Morrison because it fills me with sickness remembering the aging musician in the fleabag East Village walkup who paid me hundreds of dollars to massage him for hours while he moaned, "ohhhh....bayyyyybyyyy......ohhhhhhh......baaaaayyybbbyyyyyyy"

Sending you the UTMOST solidarity. I use Craigs to advertise. I know it's risky, but it actually attracts a better clientele (upscale) than the main publication here in NYC people use.

CJ...I just wanna say...I SO relate. And I'm SO glad you're posting...and sharing so honestly.

Anything I say doesnt come from any moralistic aw gee ya gotta stop this thing. I fucking get it cause I live it. Nor is it, this is great, do it forever. I don't wanna do it forever either. But I hope you get in touch with me cuz there are some trails I think I have blazed that might be helpful to you in this process!

I mean I have been through a lot in two years of doing it. Lawdy lawd! lol

Best,
Natalia
natalia in nyc at geeeeeeeeeee mail

Anonymous said...

I agree...get your own space....landlords are dealing BIG TIME right now. THen let me know where it is :)

Anonymous said...

You're just one step away from being "full service," whether you realize it or not.

Since you admitted you're pretty much broke, what would you have said if your client had offered an extra $100 or $200 just to slide his cock from your thighs into your vagina?

Think about it...

damikesc said...

It sounds like your financial situation has you seriously doubting your own decisions. I have been looking at your posts for a few weeks now (my job involves me not doing a lot for long periods of time) and it is pretty clear to me you have enough common sense to not get in above your head. You may have made a less than great decision but that's life and I would advise not dwelling on it. You cannot undo it, just learn lessons from it. I would also assume your current dependency on Derek is further driving your concerns.

You know your limits, have had them tested and passed the test. You have enough intellect to not make monumentally bad decisions. I would advise you to have more faith in yourself. You made it abundantly clear you aren't going tko turn tricks outside of the happy ending. You don't seem to be doing anything outside of what you previously did...but I get that monetary concerns can be a huge problem for anybody and raise doubts.

Also, really interesting blog.

Anonymous said...

Just fuck already!

Anonymous said...

As a long time reader and fan of your blog, let me vote with those who say it is time to make a change of careers. You are obviously struggling and I think you need to make a clean break. Starting something new might be intimidating, but I think you'll feel better about yourself. I would miss your posts, but I would feel better knowing you've turned a page in your life. And hopefully one for the better. Best of luck!

Anonymous said...

a matter of time....

When Will It End?? said...

A matter of time... before Anonymous gets tired of jacking off while putting CJ down.

Or not :(

You don't approve. We get it. You think she's a whore. We get it. You think she's going to fuck for money one day. WE GET IT!

Can you leave now? Unless this is some kind of creep online stalking (and personally, I think it is), I really don't see anythink to be gained from further comments from you.

Why do you keep it up? Does it get you off, or are you just plain stupid? We'll all chip in and get you a blowjob, if you'll just leave.

Reflex said...

Ace -

Sorry to respond directly, and I am sure you won't choose to believe me, but she is not in love with you. You are one of several foreign men she is stringing along for money in the hopes that she can 'marry you' someday. I am friends with many people in the local Thai community, and this is a very common scam that is run (same thing from Russia, btw), and unless you are fabulously wealthy you'll never get the girl.

Please stop sending money. I'm sure you are, its why she's in touch. Once you have 'financial difficulty' you'll find out quickly how true her 'love' for you is. Guarantee it.

Sorry to break it to you. Not trying to be harsh. I've just seen this one in action more than once.

Anonymous said...

Love the blog CJ. If I were you, keep all of it, throw in some stories about your family and any wild party days and get it published.

You're kinda painted in a corner with your profession. Nobody has much money for any kind of massages these days. You're guna need health insurance at some point..Just taking on a part time job might give some fresh perspective. Good luck!

MrMike said...

CJ,
First, let me add my name to the long list of your fans who have praised your writing. I have read your ENTIRE BLOG over the past couple of months, including many but not all of the comments. Often, your writing has made me laugh. Sometimes you've made me angry. Many times you've made me hard. But I don't think I've ever been bored, whether you wrote about your experiences in The Business, your personal life, your advice to those seeking massages, or your personal opinions.

I have some views of my own that I will offer in time, if this excellent and interesting blog does continue. I will just note that I was very disappointed to read about your separation from the Business, as I fear it means that the end of this excellent saga is drawing near.

However, I am dying to hear the story behind your departure.

Mike

Anonymous said...

CJ,

You need to decide who you are, and what you want to be in life. You're finally realizing that you just can't rationalize the emotion out of sexual contact. Good for you.

Also, on a completely selfish note, now that you're gone from the business, why not tell us where it's located?

Anonymous said...

I bettin you could write some really good stories for porn flicks based on your writing ability, imagination, and experience.

Olyan Word Verification said...

cj,

you are standing on a bridge, one of them old humpbacked japan bridges, staring at the brook flowing beneath you.

you are standing on a bridge watching you life flow by. downstream is the past, things that have already happened that cannot be changed. upstream is the future, those things that have not yet happened and can still be altered.

you standing on a bridge watching your future come into the present and recede into the past. you are standing in the only spot from which you can view your past objectively and change your future.

you are standing on a bridge knowing what you were and what you are about to become. even though you may feel you know what you are doing and where you are going there are future events beyond your intimate control.

you are standing on a bridge watching doors close as you open others. opportunities undreampt, unimaginable now invisible and unknowable simply because of closed doors.

just make sure that whatever it is you end up doing has been well thought out and determined to be rational and productive.

i am an ex-junkie standing on a bridge watching my life go by in the stream below. once a junkie always a junkie. crave the dragon, taste the dragon, and spend the rest of your life chasing the dragon. the only way to stop being a junkie is to not fix the next time. and after you don't fix this time the next thing you do is not fix the next time. and so it goes.

Anonymous said...

You might as well be doing full service sessions and make more money.

Once a whore , always a whore.

That is what you are, a whore.

Anonymous said...

Im sorry, I came across this blog looking for cheap asian parlors that gives handjobs.

I could care less if CJ, or any other anonymous person dies, gets brutally raped with barbed wire wrapped broomsticks. I don't want you to waste your time caring or even attempting to troll.

I stay here for the following reasons:
1) Watching CJ try and rationalize that she isn't some bottom feeding two-timing cum trap that gives a massage.

2) The sheer fact that most of you readers are so infatuated with her stories as inspiration for your own lives, it's my own morbid curiosity to see how far you idiots with justify and support this whore. Yet, you sheeple are against politicians fucking whores in office like bill clinton.

So go fuck yourselves

Anonymous said...

CJ, you're peering into the abyss. There isn't any going back if you fall in.

Turn back now before it's too late. Do something else, do anything but this. Please.

When Will It End?? said...

To the asshole Anonymous:

You're not here to listen to CJ rationalize her actions.

You're here to demean and belittle her, and occasionally treat others the same way... otherwise you wouldn't post.

I'm not saying she's doing the right thing... but she's not trying her damnedest to treat another person like a piece of shit - you're the one doing that. Are you thinking that makes you better than her?

If you didn't care what happens to her, you wouldn't post. I think being a dick is all you're good at - and you ARE good at it.

When Will It End?? said...

PS to asshole Anonymous:

It's sort of funny... if you came to a sex worker's site to show you're better than her (or anyone else here), you've failed pretty spectacularly.

damikesc said...

Don't get the hate for CJ. You act like a very bitter crush gone wrong.

I personally don't see why what she does is illegal. It certainly isn't hurting the clients...heck, they want her services clearly. If both parties are able to consent and do so, it being illegal is silly.

Anonymous said...

This is damaging-to CJ, the client, and families. The wives of these men have their faith, trust, and self-worth destroyed. The men are sex addicts, would you offer heroine to a drug addict? Would you drop your kids off for a known pedophile to babysit? CJ-the first time you gave a handjob or took your shirt off for money you became a prostitute not a masseuse.

Anonymous said...

I am standing on a bridge waiting to jump off and kill myself for actually wasting time and reading the 'standing on a bridge' crap comment.

Anonymous said...

If u havnt realized it or not your pretty much cheating on him weather your doing full service or not...

Keeping hidden the things u are doing isnt right for him if he thinks ur doing a real job

Just imagine if he was secretly fingering girls for a living i dont think you would like that

rdg-abe said...

you know, this blog is awesome because of the commentators. half of them are insane fans who just don't get it, half of them are just nasty dicks, and half of them are just pointing out what assholes the former are while laughing with the latter.

all of which is mathmatically implausible.

sort of like i'm not really buying into the story anymore. i do believe its jumped the shark, and no longer buy it. if for no other reason that some of the hobbyist boards would mention their ATFs had disappeared.

nope. filthy with lies.

although, if not, chick's gone whore and y'all are either too fcking stupid or just into jacking off at this nonsense to buy into it.

tightend said...

CJ,

Welcome back! I miss you!

You're close to crossing the line of no return and once you cross that line you will never be able to take it back...besides, one miss stroke and he's in...

Tightend

Anonymous said...

Yoo Hoo...you're a prostitute :)

Ospize Your Eyes said...

Anonymous said...

I am standing on a bridge waiting to jump off and kill myself for actually wasting time and reading the 'standing on a bridge' crap comment.

8/24/11 3:11 PM

My dear friend, the world will be a far superior place at the instant of your death, so please please please hurry up and kill yourself as you sort of promised to do.

Until then, why don't you consider not posting stupid comments? I know I would think the better of you if you stopped the insanity.

Anonymous said...

Stop the insanity? What fun would that be?

brickhenry999@gmail.com said...

anon 2:38

if you find it fun to harm others then there is nothing i can say to you about why that is uncool other than to say when it happens to you please do not sit around wondering why it happened to you. just remember that it is the fun stuff and you'll be ok.

Lady Luck said...

Hi CJ! Long time reader, first time comment-er. I don't want to tell you what you should or shouldn't do, I just want to say this:

If you don't feel comfortable with what you're doing then you should try to evaluate what you're doing and try to find a way to make it better. I'm not saying that you should or shouldn't leave the business, but you should re-evaluate your boundaries and practices so that you can feel happy and confident with what you are doing.

I wish you all the best.

Melissa Blade said...

I really wish there was a way to screen these comments.

The anonymous assholes who have a dead-seated hatred for women (and themselves) need to be quieted.

In wordpress, comments can be approved/deleted before being posted.

Anonymous said...

brickhenry, my comment was meant to be sarcastic and was directed at the haters in the room. Next time, I'll make sure my comments convey my thoughts more clearly.

I actually like CJ and wish nothing but the best for her.

Mike said...

CJ, It's time to get out and move on to a brighter chapter in your life. Open your tanning salon. It's time. I've been telling you that for a while now.

rdg-abe said...

oh for fuck's sake, get off your high horse, melissa. if this was real, do you really think ehs' not essentially whoring now? look, let's drop the pretentious womyn empowermynt bullfuck for a moment and read.

look, make money with your sex. fuck yeah, you deserve it. but don't claim its something else.

Jay said...

Actually, I think Bill Clinton was the best president that ever lived. I have met him several times, and even danced with him once on a cruise ship. And I do not give a flying flip who he sleeps with, because it is none of anyone's business. And I also like CJ, and support her in whatever she is doing, because I have been there, and done that, and got the t-shirt, and lived to tell about it, and so will she. I think that if CJ weren't careful and didn't have any boundaries she would still be at the Business doing full service and living with an old man sugar daddy instead of dating someone she truly cares for.

rdg-abe said...

cares so much she beats off strangers to help cover the rent.

and hides it behind lies.

yeah, that's fuckin true love right there.

Anonymous said...

CJ

I had suggested before that you consider getting a college degree,
this may be the ideal time.

Unemployment is high, grab a 2 year AA at a local community college, it gets you out of Dereks place, gives you some structure, and you get to advertise yourself as a college girl.

The other thing is if you are studying, it's a great time absorber while looking for a client.

-pat

Anonymous said...

I remember reading that you are a trained massage therapist. If you have a massage school certification you can get licensed in PA. The switch to going legit might be difficult but there are plenty of docs hiring massage therapists. Just my two cents.

Dee said...

CJ - the seeds of an addiction have been planted (or in this case should we say, almost planted? lol). Boundaries, regret, promises, broken promises, cycles, etc. Maybe it's time to join your local SA group once a week? Just a thought. ;-)

abe-rdg said...

legit? fuck that shit. legit doesnt pay like jerking dudes off. four hours of giving assholes deep tissue massage, or one load on the tits?

nope. people like this are unable to break the cycle. its why ever strip club includes one 40 something beast who still tries hard.

Anonymous said...

First of all... why is it wrong? Why is this a "degrading" act? I don't see it.

MrMike said...

I just hope you decide to continue writing, since you are such a good writer and this has been such an interesting read.
Mike

Frank said...

Hi CJ!

I come to your blog late and this comment may or may not help you but don't let the hatred get to you. Reading the comments here really could get you down. You do have options. If you're trained cmt are there any chiropractic practices that can use your skills? Where I live in Delaware County we have a number of places that could use your skills. You can continue in the erotic massage biz but insist on the rules being the rules. If a regular was ok with them at the parlor they will still be ok with themmom an outcall basis. I just wanted to say please keep us posted. You're loved and thought of by most of your readers just ignore the ones that will hate you no matter what you decide

Anonymous said...

C.J.

When I read your "Update" posting I was remined of something you wrote a couple years ago.

On October 30, 2008, you wrote," variation I'll do is me on my back while he lies on top and pretends like we're fucking. Needless to say, the 2nd variation I will only do with guys I'm really comfortable with. Good breath helps too. In this position, he'll usually finish on my stomach or breasts."

So, isn't this a normal extra you offer to customers you are comfortable with or are the rules changing?

Thank you,
Rod

Anonymous said...

So, this isn't anything new after all. Thanks, Rod!

When Will It End?? said...

Dick-headed trolling isn't new, either. Thanks, Anonymous!

brickhenry999@gmail.com said...

yea you anonymous cunts!
why can't you guys use real names like the rest of us and cj who are open and easily found instead of just anonymous!
youse guys are always trolling for us by having different opinions! that's lame! your lame!
cj! you do what you want to do coz your awesome and i like reading your stories so much that you ttotally need to keep doing what yuo do because no one should try and pont out if you might be not doing good things! keep up writing@!

The REAL Brick Henry who is somewhat upset that an asshat is using his email address said...

Uh, that is my real name up to the "999" part. I do not know who is using my email address here, but I wish they would stop. It is extremely disquieting to see my email address used as someone's name on a comment I did not make. Please stop or I will be forced to do something about it.

Brick Henry

Anonymous said...

Oh BrickHenry, I'd love to see you "do something about it."

I'm shaking in my knickers.

the authentic brickhenry999@gmail.com said...

Why the fuck are you trying to steal my name? My momma named me brick after my poppa and thats who I am. You're an asshole! I love CJ and I never want her to quit writing this awesome blog coz I like to jack off to it and pretend I'm man enough to go out and pay some Asian chick to jerk me off after the table shower but if momma and poppa caught me I'd get yelled at.

Who else on this forum wants her to keep writing so that they can jack off? Melissa Blade's whorelog isn't as good for spanking material.

unfreas999 said...

you motherfuckers really suck. to the one shaking in his underpants, send me your address and i'll mail you a package of "something" that might just surprise you, you bet.

i have now cancelled my brickhenry999@gmail.com email address and will certainly not post my new address here where you dick wads make fun of me. so fuck off now.

officialbrickhenry999@gmail.com said...

He's right, you guys totally suck!

unfreas999 said...

you guys are assholes! cj can we have a date i'm the right guy for you because i think this is hot and u can turn me on with stories and tell me truth.

my sister says i'm not creepy and dad says i kiss reel good. we'll be great together!

brickhenry999@gmail.com said...

what the hell is going on? none of these people are me and i am not changing my username. cj you can contact me here if you need me.

Anonymous said...

CJ... I spent most of the holiday reading your blog. I loved a lot of your stories. This one kind of made for a sad ending. I hope you move on to something else. Even if its going to work for another EMP. It just works better to have your work in one place with set rules.

-J

unfreas999 said...

Were building up crescendo for the finale I bet. Like a big mental handjob.

Anonymous said...

A mental handjob! I love it!

Anonymous said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dRwavkOYu2Q&feature=related

Dear little trouble maker...

...this isn't one of the normal Anon...only because I know you Very personally. Will I ever tell hell no...but I do know that you will really laugh at the last part of this and be able to impersonate it well...silly girl...so know even-tho im gone i have not forgotten.

MrMike said...

Well, I'm really afraid we've lost CJ. This was such a great blog.
But, it did seem like the place to post this story:
http://www.abajournal.com/news/article/massage_parlor_mistrial_declared_after_masseuse_recognizes_defense_lawyer_a/?utm_source=maestro&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=weekly_email

Anonymous said...

Reflex, it's Ace posting under anonymous, forgot my password and stuff, sorry to respond directly back, but here we go, as I don't know how to reply otherwise. I'm quite familiar with the scam, been traveling to Thai for going on 7 years now, and know my way around the "scene" there quite well. Haven't sent her a dime, the first time she asked, I'd have cut if off without a second thought. I guess what I am trying to say is that I know what I'm doing, and yes, I know how stupid it is. Contrary to popular belief, some (few) of those relationships do work... I've seen them work out and fail (fail far more often, of course) myself, I guess I'm just hoping I'm one of the few in a thousand and willing to roll the dice. You only live once, right? Thanks for your concern, but your initial prediction is right... onward we go. :)

Now as this is supposed to be about CJ and not my own crap problems, I'll shut up now.

Sweri said...

ace and reflex

this is supposed to be about cj, so fill us in right now on the thai scam she is supposedly running. this is at least as interesting as her venture into outcall.

Sweri

McLovin said...

I hope u have a whoregasm and realize how much of a whore u are

Its nice knowing u have a boyfriend and probablly doesnt know you jacked off hundreds of guys with the same hands ur doing him with

Ur pathetic u should be truthful to him u shady bitch

I hope he fucks some bitch infront of u so u can know how it feels u low life piece of shit

Just Visiting said...

Wow.

I think McLovin needs to get McLaid.

Anonymous said...

no just visiting,

he doesn't need to get mckaid, he needs to get mcdead

Just Visiting said...

MrMike:

I'm afraid you're right... CJ might very well be gone - hopefully we'll get a couple more posts from her before she bows out.

I can't say this would surprise me. Early in the blog she made comments about using saved money to open her own (legit) place. That talk hasn't come up in a long time.

IMO she's just so far into this business she's got no options - certainly not any choices she still wants to be doing when she's 50.

And this makes me sad. She might not win awards for Highest Moral Standards, but she's smart, funny, and entertaining. It's hard not to hope good things for her (some posters notwithstanding).

rdg-abe said...

the thing is, those posters, who still occasionally believe there's a level of reality there and not just a load of shit (more and more likely daily) actually would feel sad for someone in said predicament.

the problem is that the persona is one of a liar who can't admit she's selling sex for money, lying to everyone aroudn them, and generally engaging in morally bankrupt behaviour. the peanut gallery applauds it because they either live vicariously through it or they jerk off to it and don't want their material compromised.

there's been a few people over the years who've commented that its just sort of sad, and the further you slide down the hole the harder it is to come out.

and step one of the twelve step program is admittance.

Anonymous said...

Anyone want to play Battletoads for the Wii? That is more interesting than this fake ass shit.

Oh, you are still a funny whore.

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